An Orange Cloud

Today  I  was thinking of you, like always, while  I was  falling asleep.  A few years from now, we will get married, have children, get them married and have grandchildren.  By that  time  we would be retired. I want to buy a house on the outskirts with some land and a two-story individual house for us. I will stop dyeing my hair black and peer pressure you into stopping  too . You would look so handsome with grey/silver hair. I would oil my hair every day so that when I washed it,  it’d  be silky, curly and bouncy. We would be competitive about who has better hair  and  obviously, you will win because  you’re   handsome always . Our kids and their kids would  come  visit us during festivals and spend a week. I hope our kids come  visit  us for every festival. I hope we raise them right and that they love us truly.  During summer, our grandchildren would be dropped off by their p...

  It’s exhausting.   Trail Of Thoughts- 32 Sto-rini- 21 You find metaphors in everything, everywhere. Every little action feels like a narration from a third view. Every thought is like a moment of truth that defines who I am.   Even little things like watching shorts for a few minutes before getting up in the morning, the deity narrates; “When waking up in the fresh cloudy morning, Rini would rather look at her 15cmx7.5cm brick of technology than get up and take a peek at the never ending beauty of nature. Is this how she wants to start the day or is she made that way? Let’s find out in the next scene.” And I, who just watched some brain-rot content to feel awaken, would stare into abyss and do a face palm.   Please tell me you all feel this way. I can think of many more.   I use my computer while studying for music. The music sometimes turns into music videos which I don’t hate. I love Blackpink, but then the deity starts, “Studying for...

 it's such a pretty word ahhhhh 22-10-22 Trail Of Thoughts- 31     People are like crystals   Often only a few are recognized and admired   But those stuck at the bottom,   Maybe prettier than those ever found,   Are crippling down below.   They need to be known   They need to be bestowed.   And most importantly know that they're loved once they're found.   Keep working hard,   Maybe one day when the world finds you   You'll be treasured   More than you were in your mind.       I wrote this back in 2022. After collecting a lot of dust, im bestowed upon this masterpiece. I remember writing this in a train probably going to a temple.   I love this. It’s definitely not about external validation; it’s mostly about getting the spotlight so you can show people what you really are.   Now let’s ask chatgpt, what it thinks of this poem...

  Trail Of Thoughts- 30 I want to go to the beach with you at 12 in the morning. I would take multiple pictures of you, candid mostly. The moonlight, the breeze, the waves, the ocean sounds; everything feels so beautiful, just like you.   When the moonlight falls on you, your skin glows and you become even more handsome.   Your silky straight hair, parted in the middle, messy in the breeze, glows and shines as the dim street light ignites the area.   I bring my camera, fully charged to capture you smiling and looking very handsome. The solitude, the stars above us and your galaxy like eyes, all of these fill my heart with love, love towards you. You’re a lovely human.   I want to do what humans do when they’re in love. I want to wear a long skirt and run in the beach with you. I want to find shells in the sand. We can have a competition on who would find the prettiest shell. I will obviously win because you’re the pretti...

Stor-rini- 21 One thing about being someone who scores the highest in a class full of buffoons uninterested students is that you never try your best. I get the highest in my class and everyone would congratulate me for that, but deep down, my teacher and I know that it wasn’t the best of me. I can do better. Better than this at least.  When I saw my paper, I noticed all the silly mistakes I have made, very silly. I could have easily got 5 marks (more or less) if only had I applied the formulae right and maybe my brain. To add to the pain, my teacher said I should’ve got 10 marks less if it were for a strict correction. He went on saying how easy the paper was and it truly cut right through my heart. I could do much better and it’s as if a rubber sky is stopping me from flying high or my feet are tied to the ground. It’s either of that or I’m losing my mind here. I truly hope it’s not the last one. It’s definitely not worth it. The fact that I’m blaming the surroundings in the first...

100th post I know what I don’t wanna be in future. And I know what I don’t wanna become in future. I know what I don’t like And I know what I hate.   I know what I feel bad about myself.   Well, I know what I don’t want to be becoming in future.   It’s a total shot in the dark Because   There is a lot of darkness of impossibilities and possibilities that I don’t like. And futures that I don’t want to make mine.   So when I say a total shot in the dark, I mean I don’t know what I want to become.   I see people; I see them live their lives Not the way they had in mind When they first started it.   And they realized it in the mid-ways. Yet they have no other choice.   They have to live that life.   There is no turning back now.   I see that, I see that every day. I see that when I wake up. I see that when I go to college. I see that when I am in college. I see it every day,...

4-3-24   Trail Of Thoughts- 29 I always joke that when my friend dies, I will “borrow” her diary and read it. Like, binge-read it. It is so very weird and so intimate. But I really want to know what goes on in her   Universe.   Does she have the same stars As Me?   Does she also have a Curious astronaut Exploring the vast dark space with so much Pink glitter dust?   Does she also have planets in her solar system with her favourite homes in each of them?   Does she also associate new people she meets to old people she met?   Does she think of little perfect things in every corner of this large floating sphere?   Does she also love watching Disney movies, Maybe re-watching them?   Does she often think of Escaping the reality And meet up with her Curious exploring astronaut In a cute pink (baby pink) space suit?   Does she wonder about all the undiscovered planets , Waiting to be...