i see people

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I know what I don’t wanna be in future.

And I know what I don’t wanna become in future.

I know what I don’t like

And I know what I hate.

 

I know what I feel bad about myself.

 

Well,

I know what I don’t want to be becoming in future.

 

It’s a total shot in the dark

Because

 

There is a lot of darkness of impossibilities and possibilities that I don’t like.

And futures that I don’t want to make mine.

 

So when I say a total shot in the dark, I mean I don’t know what I want to become.

 

I see people; I see them live their lives

Not the way they had in mind

When they first started it.

 

And they realized it in the mid-ways. Yet they have no other choice.

 

They have to live that life.

 

There is no turning back now.

 

I see that, I see that every day.

I see that when I wake up.

I see that when I go to college.

I see that when I am in college.

I see it every day,

I see it in everyone.

 

Everyone has a future that they want to make theirs one day. But,

 

It was a dream and it stayed a dream.

 

Everyone, they, wanted to become something in their lives.

They tried,

They failed,

Tried again,

Failed again

And they just never tried again.

 

They didn’t think it was worth it,

Worth the aftermath that you get for rebelling against the life’s destiny.

 

It takes a brave heart to realize that your destiny may not be your dream. Emphasis on maybe.

 

When we are kids, we think a lot of things.

We dream about a lot of things.

 

I guess I’m still a kid because I’m still dreaming.

 

I’m still dreaming to not be in the future that I’m heading towards.

 

I’m dreaming to get a result different from my efforts.

 

 

The journey that I am going on does not lead to the destination I want,

The destination that I dream about.

Yet I can’t stop.

 

Maybe it’s too late,

Maybe the destination that I dream/t should just remain a dream.

 

And this new one that I’m so preparing for and

So profoundly working towards

Is the only thing,

The destination,

That I deserve and

The dream that I’m worth.

 

I see people every day, getting their dreams crushed.

I see people dying but alive.

 

Dying but existing.

 

I see people be crushed but they are just so given up that they have no other choice but to

Get back just to fall down again.

 

I see people every day,

Struggling to live their life

Because they’re not able to

Give others what they expect.

 

I see people everyday working, working really hard for themselves and everyone around them

But not being understood by those around them.

 

I see people every day so stripped off life,

Like a walking bag of flesh and bones.

They just exist,

Just existing.

 

I see people every day, I see them love,

love something with their heart,

Yet for the love of god can’t do it.

Because they’re not supposed to do that.

They should go in that destiny, the pre-planned one.

Which is like I said, is not equal to dream.

 

I see people everyday who failed a lot of times

Who waited way too long to choose something

But were left with no other choice,

No other figs to grab,

Like a weathered opportunity,

Like catching their last breath,

So hopeless,

Trying to do something,

Anything to stay alive.

 

But for what?

Just to die,

Die every day

Doing the same thing.

 

 

It’s a loop.

It’s a rat’s maze.

 

There is no way out,

 

No way in.

 

We are all just

 

 

 

There.

 

 

I see people every day,

I see them.

I am them.

You are them.

 

We are all them.

 

People we see

Are the people

We become

Reluctantly.

 

 

And thus everything in the universe

Falls into place,

And everyone

 

Meets their destiny.

 

Thank you.