An Orange Cloud

 hii!   You make me wanna write all the love songs in the world You make me wanna learn how to dance to slow songs   You make me want to learn how to bake And maybe bake us a love cake one day   You are my muse for my poems You make me want to write You help me from writer’s block You make me wanna click pictures of the sky   I be looking at the blue, cloudy sky And wonder what you are doing Under the heavenly blanket Of gases and vapours perfectly set Above our heads.   I be looking at the children around me And wonder what how you are doing If you’re happy to be with me   I be looking at the chirping birds And wonder if you’re enjoying Your time with me   You’re my muse You make me want to feel How it is to love you And how it feels to be loved by you.   I be looking at the Easter eggs Nature provides Like those little heart leaves; Like those little heart rocks; Like those little heart puddles; Like those little heart clouds.   I be looking at them And wonder how much they remind me

hii!   You make me wanna write all the love songs in the world You make me wanna learn how to dance to slow songs   You make me want to learn how to bake And maybe bake us a love cake one day   You are my muse for my poems You make me want to write You help me from writer’s block You make me wanna click pictures of the sky   I be looking at the blue, cloudy sky And wonder what you are doing Under the heavenly blanket Of gases and vapours perfectly set Above our heads.   I be looking at the children around me And wonder what how you are doing If you’re happy to be with me   I be looking at the chirping birds And wonder if you’re enjoying Your time with me   You’re my muse You make me want to feel How it is to love you And how it feels to be loved by you.   I be looking at the Easter eggs Nature provides Like those little heart leaves; Like those little heart rocks; Like those little heart puddles; Like those little heart clouds.   I be looking at them And wonder how much they remind me

  You're the reason I h4te my mirror You're the reason I hate myself You're the reason behind the dark voices You're the reason behind my shitty past You make me wanna k1ll myself All you gotta do is just exist Whenever I look into your eyes Oh my, my neck is near a knife I saw you last night accidentally And it speaks to me relentlessly Oh you're my trauma You're the beginning of the drama. Oh i was a fool To think i could live this through My heart beats faster My lungs breath faster My blood moves faster I wanna be unalive sooner Oh the world has turned grey Whenever I see you smile. Oh the clouds above my head Are as gloomy as my mind You're my trauma The one I can't leave behind You're my trauma The one I need to carry to the grave Our eyes locked And in seconds I could feel the darkness Cover my senses I can see nothing but you Oh the devil himself showed up Not to kill me but to Make me suffer till my last breath You're the killer in my he

  Am I the only one? Or does anyone think That time is moving really fast right now?   Just one more year and My school life ends   Everything is rushing Everyone is rushing To finish their lives Metaphorically   I wonder if I’m even keeping up with the pace Or am I even walking in this race?          I feel like i'm growing too fast The wind is pushing me back The race seems to come to an end Before I even start   It scares me to think How people are like It scares me to think How I can survive   I’m scared of my life ahead And I can’t seem to Live my life now   The present seems to be in the past While I keep looking at the map Showing how far behind I am And how fast I need to run   I need to catch up With people And their expectations And the standards in the clouds   I feel like I’m growing too fast My childhoods gonna end I have to stop having fun I’m gonna lose all my friends   I’m scared of the life before me I can’t focus on the present The tunnel seems so long What if the