An Orange Cloud

 hii!   You make me wanna write all the love songs in the world You make me wanna learn how to dance to slow songs   You make me want to learn how to bake And maybe bake us a love cake one day   You are my muse for my poems You make me want to write You help me from writer’s block You make me wanna click pictures of the sky   I be looking at the blue, cloudy sky And wonder what you are doing Under the heavenly blanket Of gases and vapours perfectly set Above our heads.   I be looking at the children around me And wonder what how you are doing If you’re happy to be with me   I be looking at the chirping birds And wonder if you’re enjoying Your time with me   You’re my muse You make me want to feel How it is to love you And how it feels to be loved by you.   I be looking at the Easter eggs Nature provides Like those little heart leaves; Like those little heart rocks; Like those little heart puddles; Like those little heart clouds.   I be l...

  You're the reason I h4te my mirror You're the reason I hate myself You're the reason behind the dark voices You're the reason behind my shitty past You make me wanna k1ll myself All you gotta do is just exist Whenever I look into your eyes Oh my, my neck is near a knife I saw you last night accidentally And it speaks to me relentlessly Oh you're my trauma You're the beginning of the drama. Oh i was a fool To think i could live this through My heart beats faster My lungs breath faster My blood moves faster I wanna be unalive sooner Oh the world has turned grey Whenever I see you smile. Oh the clouds above my head Are as gloomy as my mind You're my trauma The one I can't leave behind You're my trauma The one I need to carry to the grave Our eyes locked And in seconds I could feel the darkness Cover my senses I can see nothing but you Oh the devil himself showed up Not to kill me but to Make me suffer till my last breath You're the killer in my he...

  Am I the only one? Or does anyone think That time is moving really fast right now?   Just one more year and My school life ends   Everything is rushing Everyone is rushing To finish their lives Metaphorically   I wonder if I’m even keeping up with the pace Or am I even walking in this race?          I feel like i'm growing too fast The wind is pushing me back The race seems to come to an end Before I even start   It scares me to think How people are like It scares me to think How I can survive   I’m scared of my life ahead And I can’t seem to Live my life now   The present seems to be in the past While I keep looking at the map Showing how far behind I am And how fast I need to run   I need to catch up With people And their expectations And the standards in the clouds   I feel like I’m growing too fast My childhoods gonna end I have to stop having fun I’m gonna lose all my friends   I’m scared of the life befor...

 I couldn't decide which category to add this into so i decided to put two labels on it, 'trail of thoughts' and 'poems'. The former because this is my thoughts and the latter is because this was supposed to be a poem. Trail of thoughts- 6 (fun fact- my favourite single digit number is 6) I wanted to write a poem about how much I like you. But then I couldn’t find the rhymes to express how much you mean to me. So just enjoy this little letter/message from my heart to yours,   You make me smile with my heart and yes, you make me want to crack a joke just so I can see you laugh. You look so beautiful when you do. In case no one told you before, I love it a lot when you smile and a lot more when I am the one who makes you smile. Your words fill me with positivity, I don’t know how you do it but you’re really good at talking and making my day better. When I see your eyes, they remind me of a mysterious forest that I would, one day, like to explore. Maybe one day I will ...

   Heyyyyyy everyone!!! I’m in such a good mood and that is because, a year back, exactly on this date, I started this blog! IT’S OUR ANNIVERSARYYY!!   So I decided to do a quick recap of my poetry’s badass back-story totally filled with guns and bl0od. (This is totally a joke because if I did have a gun, I’d k1ll mys-)     Sto-rini- 7   It was back in 2021; I just began to write poems but was definitely not so ready for another set of eyes to witness my words. I initially wrote poems for my best friends as a birthday gift, a customized gift full of love. It was not easy, AT ALL. I took days to finish a poem, some days I’d progress with a stanza and some days I don’t even touch the pencil. It was difficult to get words out of my mind, and the pressure of rhyming was on my head dancing.   Poetry to me meant rhyming and a nice beautiful flow; like a river, graceful. But for the perfectionist in me, it was a nightmare. I had to get things right on the fir...

This is sung by a girl who crushes over a guy who already has a partner. the first two lines are actually from a song. i saw a reel about it and decided to whip something of my own. the song in question is " Don't Text Me When You're Drunk " its a super cool song with cool beats.  anyways, back to my poem; Please don't text me while drunk Actually don't text me at all I don't want to look at the text  And think to myself Sigh I like him  It's not like i don't like to like you  It's just I don't have a chance with you And i don't wanna be disappointed When my nightmare comes true  But, the smile your texts bring The blush you make me  Makes me think I've found the one But before we start we are already done  We come from different galaxies  With different stars and skies But deep within our hearts, we  Are not so distant in minds You're the prince in yours I'm the Princess in mine Our galaxies were never meant to collide The ...

I told you I liked you  Even though I knew your reply It wasn't positive like my blood group  But I didn't want to regret that night  I just needed to take it off my chest  Wanted to fill the breeze so fresh  Without catching a cold  Just wanted to let it go  I wasn't sure myself  What I felt towards you  I guess I was selfish  Because I wanted to include you  The battle in my heart  Was heating up  The heartbeat was raising, thought  I would die but here I am  My ego was bigger than my heart  I couldn't take it when you rejected me  I started denying it altogether but I was too late I was already floating  I needed the ground I had to think straight But I could 'feel' myself like a 'diver in the space' Though it sucked to be alone  I needed time to let go  I am not scared of anything but to lose  And I was scared of losing you  I wanted to know you better  I wanted to let ...