Can you wait?

By Rini -
I told you I liked you 
Even though I knew your reply
It wasn't positive like my blood group 
But I didn't want to regret that night 

I just needed to take it off my chest 
Wanted to fill the breeze so fresh 
Without catching a cold 
Just wanted to let it go 

I wasn't sure myself 
What I felt towards you 
I guess I was selfish 
Because I wanted to include you 

The battle in my heart 
Was heating up 
The heartbeat was raising, thought 
I would die but here I am 

My ego was bigger than my heart 
I couldn't take it when you rejected me 
I started denying it altogether but
I was too late I was already floating 

I needed the ground I had to think straight
But I could 'feel' myself like a 'diver in the space'
Though it sucked to be alone 
I needed time to let go 

I am not scared of anything but to lose 
And I was scared of losing you 
I wanted to know you better 
I wanted to let you know me better 
I was happy when you opened your heart for me 
But you disappeared when I tried 

That night when the year ends  
And that night when we decided to stay as friends 

I finally landed on the ground 
Finally started thinking straight
Though the way for me wasn't found 
By me yet, I was challenged by my heart

You taught me 
How heart feels 
I may be angry 
But I can't deny it 

Had to use it one day 
Can't keep skipping it
It's gonna be a long race 
Hope I reach the final bit

Don't get me wrong I'm not going to 
Leave you any time soon 
That sounds so creepy 
But trust me that's what my heart tells me

And I want to try to listen to it 
Maybe this time I will succeed 
The battle with my heart and mind 
Though I don't know which one's evil 
I am still going to try to make it right 
Do what my heart wants this time 

I hope you wait for me 
To sort out my feelings 
I may need some time 
But I'm gonna be alright.


~The End~


heyy everyone!! this poem is about a crush that i had. yes i need to specify that. It was long back. Like 6 months ago. I wrote this 6 months agooo and it's seeing the light now. Wow.

Anyways, I was so invested in this one person that I was hopeful. But no, soon I lost interest and now idc even if they wait for me. So if you're reading this, don't wait for me hehe. 

Hope you liked this one!!
Love,
Rini.


Tdd- nothing special. School started, it's getting fun. I'm having fun which makes me guilty and hopeful so I need to stop and study.
I'm currently writing this in the dark at 1:20am after finishing my maths hw. Omg it's so freaking lengthy. It's easy but takes a ton of time and effort. But I still love maths 😭😭😭
(Plz dont hate me for that)
Hope you have a great July!!
And from tomorrow on, all the brands and companies change their icons to their own (boring) sh1t. 
Okiee byeee
Love youuuu

Comments

  1. Riya Gupta30 June 2022 at 17:32

    Oh my goddess. Oh my. This. This is incredible. My gosh. That's like wow. "It wasn't positive like my blood group"...wonderful.

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  2. Anonymous30 June 2022 at 19:11

    Beautiful 🤧🤧

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  3. Ved30 June 2022 at 19:24

    Crushes can crush you 🌚🌚🌚

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  4. Anonymous30 June 2022 at 20:30

    I am an orange cloud ☁️🌟🌄🌻🌈🧡

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    1. An Orange Cloud1 July 2022 at 20:06

      🌹🌸🌺🌼 then what am i?🤡🤔🤨

      Delete
  5. Anonymous30 June 2022 at 21:29

    Beautiful!

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