there's still time, eh?

By Rini -

 

It’s just January


 Trail Of Thoughts-44



January can be the month of optimism. It has that potential AND the advantage.

 

It is the beginning of the year. No one can dampen your spirits or say a word that can falter your enthusiastic looking forwardness to life. Because it IS the beginning of the year.

 

It is a new beginning.

 

The other day, I was feeling a little down on not following through on my routine I planned for myself for the year. Then it clicked. It’s just January. I still have the whole year to mess-up- I’m kidding.

It’s a huge relief. It is only five days in; it is a safe space for fuk-ups and failures. It is okay.

 

I saw a YouTube video the other day that talked about feeling overwhelmed when starting a new thing on the account of New Year. We put resolutions- a goal- an end, and fall back on the means.

It gets overwhelming. The solution was to consider short term goals, instead of long term, to get the momentum going.

 

At the end of it all, you’ll get there.

 

If you don’t, then it’s not the end

 

Everything will be okay.

 

Genuinely speaking, I don’t think anyone dampening the spirits of a whimsical (or even a normal) person celebrating new years is right. If you’re indifferent to the concept of changing calendars every 365 days, you don’t have to show it or project it on people who aren’t. It is high time people understand the difference between opinions and norms. Your perspective isn’t the only.

 

This optimistic outlook has helped me stay unaffected by the tiny inconsistencies in my New Year resolutions. Yet I have to stay focused and follow through. I was wishing for a routine for so long, one that can be achieved with changes I made in my life. Now that everything is the way I dreamt of few weeks ago, I feel guilty on not following through on my wishes. I got what I wanted, the means to the end I wished for, but im unable to stay consistent.

 

I need a bolder reminder, I thought.

 

So I started attaching sticky notes all over my room. Good thing, yellow goes well on pink.

 

It is working, for now. I know I need to do something more for my chronically online, brain-rotted self to lock back in. It is difficult to change ourselves on a whim. You can’t change your entire routine as soon as new calendars fold out. If it was that easy- well- I can’t even imagine what we can achieve with that level of determination and willpower. But since we can’t, it’s no use pondering about those possibilities.

We need to start small, always. I’m seeing so many “ways”, “cheat codes”, “the only video you need to see to make your life 10000000X times better than it was before watching it” stuff on my for-your-page all over the social media, be it instagram, YouTube. But every video has one similar point- who do you want to change to?

 

That one point really shines the light on mindless New Year resolutions.

 

So, before you mess-up your already made resolutions, sit back and assess.

Alas, there’s still time.

 

 

 

 

Yours lovingly,

Rini,

Yourorangecloud.

 

 

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TDD: Ten Day Diary

The Telugu festival is donedonedone. It was fine. I miss my brother.

I spent the whole week bed-rotting and brain-rotted. Its only 3rd week and I’m already burnt-out- for no f-ing reason. My brain is so foggy.

This post is like a lesson to me as well, I made some big resolutions that I need to break into smaller goals, more short term.

Oh well, you win some, you learn some.

 

I did sleep a lot though; idk if that’s helpful to me or if it explains my state of mind.

 

Lots of yummy delicious foods have been consumed.

Whenever I watch food reels, the American food amazes me. We start the video, and we come to the garnishing part and I see not a grain of salt or condiments touching the food except cheese. I mean I get that cheese has some salt but do we really not need a dash of chilli or even pepper in the Mac n cheese????

Helps my cravings in the opposite. Appetite is gone when I realize the horror.  

 

Anyways,

Don’t be like me, have fun with your resolutions and don’t be overwhelmed.

 

 

Ok byeee, see you on the next one.

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