Nostalgia being the driving force for documentation

By Rini -

 Nostalgia is the driving force for documentation



 Trail Of Thoughts-43

At least for me, it is.

 

Every time I pick up my camera or the camera app in my phone, I think about how cool it would seem to re-visit the memories in few years time. It’s weird to be already living in the future while not even being in the present.

 

When experiences already turn into memories, it feels like self-sabotage at this point. Sabotaging the sweet enjoyment of the gift of now. The idea of imagining opening a time capsule while actively being the very item in it.

 

 It’s hard not to think of any other reason when we document a moment, freeze the time, capture the present.

 

Wearing the lens of a different time, trying to look at the ‘now’ with a matured feeling, while simultaneously experiencing the moment with raw emotions, freshly. This might be the opposite of overthinking with the most similarities to overthinking. The concept of overthinking is predicting many and all consequences to an action and trying to make the best one, it’s a made-up visualizer into the future built on butterfly effect, where the catalyst is the present moment. What I’m talking about here, is visualizing being in the future and looking back to the present like it has already passed. We are placing ourselves in the future, like a third person viewing our lives like a movie, or a simulation.

 

I talked about wanting nostalgia to be a portal rather than a feeling in one of my posts “missing”. This came from the state of mind that can be explained in the simplest phrase I could find “I wish there was a way to know you're in the good old days before you've actually left them”. This was said by the character Andy Bernard in the office, episode titled “finale”, from season 8.

 

I am constantly trying to prove to myself that I can live the ‘good ol’ days’ without having them pass before my eyes and regret taking them for granted. And I am confusing myself differentiating between the good ol’ days, and the present. I’m looking at the present with the lens of a future where I would say this is the good old days that passed by. Do you get me?

 

I understand that visualizing our future is a great way to let the universe know that you’re ready for it and you can welcome the good things.

It’s like the reel I saw the other day, when you want something from the universe, you shouldn’t say you don’t have it. Because having said you don’t have it, you’re showing that you lack it. But instead if you already think you have it, you’re telling the universe that you’re ready for it. [*find the reel to make it clearer*] ig:@dad_gone_cosmic

{“Reality doesn’t respond to what you say you want. It responds to how you feel. Wanting something means you’re in a state of “not having it”. That ‘lack’ is the frequency you’re broadcasting. You have to feel as if you already have it, right now, in order to attract it.”}

 

I want to make clear that I’m not talking about building castles in the air. I said nothing about the future. All I’m talking about is the present, the now, the ‘gift’ of nature. Just from a nostalgic point of view, without the passage of time.

 

Well, what is time anyways? For all we know, time is relative. For all we don’t know, everything is everywhere all at once.

The concept that time is not linear but a point. Past, present and future are all happening simultaneously right now.

 

Maybe I put my head out the window a little too long and keep getting hit by the future and past. I should have my head in the game, inside the bus.

 

Inside the box.

 

And what’s in the box, you ask?

The present.

 

 

 

 

 

Get it? Like present present. Homophones lmaoo

 

 

 

Nostalgia is a privileged emotion;

What a privilege it is to have a life worth missing.



 

Anyways, thank you for reading my blog; it’s an articulated window to my mind. Hope you like what you’re seeing, wink wink.

 

Please share your thoughts on the topic and tell me why you document things in your life.

 

Until next time,

Yours lovingly,

Rini.

An orange cloud.

 

 

 

 

 

 

TDD: Ten day diary

2026 is so far going good. Don’t wanna jinx it. It’s finally the weekend, Sankranti soon!!

Sankranti is a Telugu festival, an ode to our ancestors. Kinda like the movie Coco.

We also dedicated a whole day just for eating non-veg (which im very excited for).

In this festival, the men visit their in-laws. Probably to munch.

 

I’m looking forward to the holidays, sleeping in.

 

I love life.

Went to a trampoline park nearby with my school friend, been soooooo long since we last met. Absolutely  lovvvvved the meet-up. Looking forward to more of those!! She is one of those people with so many hobbies and talents. She’s good at everything she does. She’s a delight to be around. Here’s her art account. @_ank.art_

 

Had a 2 hour long conference call with my close friend group. It was refreshing and amazing, crazy how we went from meeting everyday for classes to talking every few weeks.

 

I love them so much.

 

 

How is your 2026 version? Lifes good? Share your life with me in the comments below!

 

Signing off,

Rini.

 

 

byeeeeeeeeeeeeeee


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