minus 5 years till the end of the world
Heh, im back.
Enough nonchalance,
HIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII I MISSED YOU ALL SO VERY MUCH!!!!
Im very excited to be back. Funny how many people asked me about my
blog, IN REAL LIFE. Makes you think posting is all public to the world haha.
Kind of a reality check, honestly. It didn’t clock to me properly how visible
this is to the public; I didn’t know I was standing on business.
I have counted the number of posts I missed (excluding the out of the
blue hiatus announcement) and it is 13. Such a great coincidence, amirite?
13 posts is a little over 4 months of break. That’s a lot. The one thing
I always had pride about my blog is the consistency and this is a blow to the
core of my heart.
A lot has happened in the past few months, lot of adulting experiences
(that I truly despise). These experiences showcase the inevitable passage of
time and its effects on us merely, mortal humans and our not-so-yellow path to
the disgusting concept of adulting. It’s lonely but with a crowd, pick a
struggle. You’re filled with loneliness, yet you see many like you, around you.
You follow a herd, but you hope to stand out. You’re surrounded by many, yet
your mind makes you think you’re alone. There’s also the other side, you see
outside of the herd and it’s seems amazing. Grass is greener on the other side
type stuff. This is all part of the-
I can’t keep saying the word adulting, I am not even twenty. Time is a
cruel cruel thing.
The days were so bad, im so glad they’re long gone. I still need few
more weeks to recover from the mess I was in. I may be exaggerating but 2025
was a wild ride, y’all.
Wrapped 2025 got to be the craziest year after Wrapped 2021. Nothing
beats 2021; it was the craziest year for that age and phase. Thinking about it,
it might be a tie between the both. Wow, that is some statement I’m putting
online, publicly. I hope no one asks me about 2021 in real life (please ask me,
I love talking).
I will be recapping the whole of 2025, which felt like a whole year.
Time is relative, that one relative who hates your whole bloodline but loves to
act lovingly. Im joking. This year has
been nothing but drama to me; if my life was a sitcom, audience would love the
lore in this season; heck even I would re-watch this season multiple times. I
lowkirkenuinely looked at the imaginary camera multiple times this year, I
might be schizophrenic.
I made lots of new friends, met lots of people, networked, socialized
and connected with many. The thing about befriending new people is that you
have to repeat your life lore to fully get them accustomed to you and the other
way around. With each person, the lore gets summarized even more. It is funny
how one thing could be told over a meet-up for hours, could also be summarized
in a couple of sentences.
Since my life till mid august is already online, I would only add bits
to it.
January would be the most stressed, tensed, anxiety infused month in my
life till date. I was writing CMA inter till Dec24 and CA inter was right
around the corner in the second week of Jan. I’m unapologetic to admit that I
cried before EVERY. SINGLE. EXAM. By the 5th one, my mom caught on
to the pattern and visibly showed signs of “here we go again”. Yet she consoled
me every single time. I love my parents so much for that. My father, who is
short-tempered, wasn’t showing signs of annoyance in the days I cried. Because
I only cry in front of them after hours of internally pressuring myself. Good
thing they caught on to that.
With the exams being done, I had one really important thing to do
Heres an excerpt from my calendar from Jan 2025, post my CA inter exams.
Oh and these were the ‘notes’ I prepared during revision before exams, never looked over them again.
Heres the ugly case I used to use to make my phone less accessible and more difficult so I don’t gravitate towards it.
And here’s my wall adored immediately after my exams.
Then came February, like a flash. I love February. We did our first ever
family trip to Kerala!! Great views, the lush greenery was to die for. I took
so many pictures. Three days into the trip, I received the best news of my
life. CMA inter results were out and I got an all India rank. My first ever
rank. I also puked from motion sickness. We went on a boat that day.
Beautifully planned. The food was amazing, I LOVE seafood so it was perfect.
Heres a dish they cooked on the boat.
Heres a video of the sun dancing with the water. “Opposite” but graceful?
I just realized I’m only two months in and its already 800+ words. Brace
yourself y’all, it’s gonna be a looong welcome back post.
March was anxious filled. New things, new people, new experiences. Made
an amazing friend. Results out, grateful for everything. Made the worst tasting
banana cake. Called the fire department, .. because there was fire.
April was also quite a networking month, met a bunch of new people. I
would debrief every new personality I met with my friend at the end of the day.
one highlight of an experience, where I would have been staring at the
camera the whole conversation if I was in a sitcom, was a guy telling me that I
should experience more bad things in life to write well. My flabber was gasted
I kid you not. He went on saying how he thinks life should hit me so bad, so
down and I hit the rock bottom that I can have content to write better,
vulnerable poems.
I was speechless and told him to shut up, obviously. And the fact that
he was serious too, lord have some mercy. Makes you wonder and worry how some
people are going to be adults in this society.
May, I joined for articleship. My 3rd year without summer
vacation, more to come, sadly. Bought lots of clothes. Spent money that wasn’t
mine (reimbursed by the office lol). Again, met some amazing people I would
love to have in my life.
June was crazy. Definitely a month I enjoyed a lot. Went to Delhi for
CMA convocation with my mom and brother, spent lots of money just to rot in the
hotel room. It was amazing. Very fun. I had to buy a whole new outfit in Delhi
to wear to the convocation, not my brightest moment, kinda wasted the day like
that. But there really wasn’t much to achieve in just one and half day in our
hands. We were on a tight schedule. One of our regrets.
Also, MANGOES! Tables are fun.
July!! Would never forget July. My first ever outstation audit. Truly a
character arc moment. Went through what people call bad emotions. Lost sense of
self, sense of time and future. Bit of a dark period I wouldn’t want to return
to or even talk about. I’m very grateful for @zzoovn. She was on call while I
cried for a whole hour. She also psycho-analyzed me. I guess we can call it a
win-win?
July was the month I had a one on one with my principal. I loved that
experience, truly. I respect him so much, and admire him a lot. I cannot
comprehend his depth of knowledge. In everything.
The place was amazing. I took loads of pictures of the nature.
July was the month I realized I might’ve lost the spark in my eyes. Cliché?
Let it be. This is my blog, my mini world.
It’s very clear in the selfies I’m going through to freshen my memory of
the past. I lost the spark. Or maybe on the verge of losing it.
But hey, July was very ‘new experience’ oriented. It was good.
Also received my first ever stipend. And what did I do? Bought laneige
lip balm. Hehe (I still use it). It’s so expensive.
August!! Started of amazing, met with all my friends for some college
thing. Nobody really cared about that btw. It was a get-together as long as we
were concerned.
August was contemplating month. Scary. Experienced stress and anxiety
first hand. Would not recommend.
Met with school friends for Independence Day. It was a good day.
August was bad lol. I low-key hated it.
September went by in a blur, not really while it happened. New
experiences again. Came home at 12am one time; that was brutal.
October: Went on a movie date with zzoovn. The shinchan movie. The movie
was 7/10; the experience was 10/10. Made her addicted to nachos. Ate lots of
cheesy foods that day.
This was our order:
‘Can you tell we like
cheese?’
October was actually, by far, the most dramatic month. There was a lot
happening in that one month. Went to my cousin’s marriage, felt very pretty.
Then outstation audit. One of a kind experience. The story is redacted redacted
redacted. Cool, eh? Let me repeat, one of a kind adventure. Met people I have
been meaning to meet for a while. Wow sounds so cheesy. Played play station
with my brother every day for 2 weeks. Completed the game “it takes two” the day
before he left. It was an amazing game play. So many arguments, disagreements,
snack breaks at 2am, diet coke every game. I love it. I love him.
November- huge decision. Also, cut my bangs!!! Oh my goddddddd. I cut my
bangs. I have always wanted bangs, since the beginning of my consciousness (uha
telisinappatnundi in Telugu). i was home alone, called zzoovn and cut my bangs
in my very own wash basin. All on my own. Felt super pretty. Still feel pretty.
Met with my college friends again, I love them so much.
Was home alone for about 10 days. LOVED IT. Ate lots of junk food. Don’t
tell my mom. Wrote exams, 9 to 12 and 2 to 5 for about a week. A hustle y’all.
Zzoovn also cut her bangs, bang buddies.
This is my most favourite pic I took in November (apart from all my
friends’ pics)
A piece of sky.
December is now finally here.
Bought my birthday dress!! (Yes i'm well aware my birthday is in February,
can’t a girl plan in advance?)
Bought and was gifted many books from my brother. Very excited to have a
low screen time in 2026.
December was twisted with bumps but we are pulling through, slowly. Got
my first ever apple product and it’s the earpods usb-c. Finally, earphones that
fit in my ears and stay. My brother was more relieved than me at one point. Haha.
In conclusion, 2025 was a wild ride. I'm so grateful for all the
experiences, new people and the old people in my life. I love life.
Im very excited for what 2026 has in its pocket for me. I’m hoping for a
peaceful time-skip arc. It has to be easy, shouldn’t it?
I don’t wanna jinx it insert crying emoji
I love you, I love you so much.
Im very happy to be back.
I wrote some poems in my hiatus, looking forward to having them here.
They deserve a spot in the internet.
I love you guys,
Thank you so much for reading till here.
Yours lovingly,
Rini,
An orange cloud.
wtf#1 — weirdass post, ider posting it until i noticed someone read it recently
TDD: Ten day diary
Hahahahahaha jk jk
It’s a new beginning.
Wish you a happy new year. We are one year closer to the end of the
world!
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