An Orange Cloud

 I couldn't decide which category to add this into so i decided to put two labels on it, 'trail of thoughts' and 'poems'. The former because this is my thoughts and the latter is because this was supposed to be a poem. Trail of thoughts- 6 (fun fact- my favourite single digit number is 6) I wanted to write a poem about how much I like you. But then I couldn’t find the rhymes to express how much you mean to me. So just enjoy this little letter/message from my heart to yours,   You make me smile with my heart and yes, you make me want to crack a joke just so I can see you laugh. You look so beautiful when you do. In case no one told you before, I love it a lot when you smile and a lot more when I am the one who makes you smile. Your words fill me with positivity, I don’t know how you do it but you’re really good at talking and making my day better. When I see your eyes, they remind me of a mysterious forest that I would, one day, like to explore. Maybe one day I will ...

   Heyyyyyy everyone!!! I’m in such a good mood and that is because, a year back, exactly on this date, I started this blog! IT’S OUR ANNIVERSARYYY!!   So I decided to do a quick recap of my poetry’s badass back-story totally filled with guns and bl0od. (This is totally a joke because if I did have a gun, I’d k1ll mys-)     Sto-rini- 7   It was back in 2021; I just began to write poems but was definitely not so ready for another set of eyes to witness my words. I initially wrote poems for my best friends as a birthday gift, a customized gift full of love. It was not easy, AT ALL. I took days to finish a poem, some days I’d progress with a stanza and some days I don’t even touch the pencil. It was difficult to get words out of my mind, and the pressure of rhyming was on my head dancing.   Poetry to me meant rhyming and a nice beautiful flow; like a river, graceful. But for the perfectionist in me, it was a nightmare. I had to get things right on the fir...

This is sung by a girl who crushes over a guy who already has a partner. the first two lines are actually from a song. i saw a reel about it and decided to whip something of my own. the song in question is " Don't Text Me When You're Drunk " its a super cool song with cool beats.  anyways, back to my poem; Please don't text me while drunk Actually don't text me at all I don't want to look at the text  And think to myself Sigh I like him  It's not like i don't like to like you  It's just I don't have a chance with you And i don't wanna be disappointed When my nightmare comes true  But, the smile your texts bring The blush you make me  Makes me think I've found the one But before we start we are already done  We come from different galaxies  With different stars and skies But deep within our hearts, we  Are not so distant in minds You're the prince in yours I'm the Princess in mine Our galaxies were never meant to collide The ...

I told you I liked you  Even though I knew your reply It wasn't positive like my blood group  But I didn't want to regret that night  I just needed to take it off my chest  Wanted to fill the breeze so fresh  Without catching a cold  Just wanted to let it go  I wasn't sure myself  What I felt towards you  I guess I was selfish  Because I wanted to include you  The battle in my heart  Was heating up  The heartbeat was raising, thought  I would die but here I am  My ego was bigger than my heart  I couldn't take it when you rejected me  I started denying it altogether but I was too late I was already floating  I needed the ground I had to think straight But I could 'feel' myself like a 'diver in the space' Though it sucked to be alone  I needed time to let go  I am not scared of anything but to lose  And I was scared of losing you  I wanted to know you better  I wanted to let ...

You joked about being dead You joke about killing yourself But that didn’t really bother me Because I thought you were kidding.   But one day it really got me. My fake scenario’s genre changed I imagined you being dead before me I was so sad and so scared.   A lot of emotions Rushed in my mind. The strongest one was The feeling of regret.   I regret not helping you. I regret ignoring you. I regret all those days. When I hated you for a change.   I regretted not being able to Change how I felt towards you. But I was too late for that You were gone thinking I hated you.   At first I was unbothered By your silly confessions. But now I'm truly scared. Scared to face those emotions.   Please don’t be gone I need you by my side I know this don’t make sense But hear me out for once.   You may want to save yourself From all the misery in life. But you should think about others. Others who have you in their hearts.   Please don’t joke about being dead I’ll...

Remember when we all had to face the wrath of online classes? Yes this is from one of those days.  Reading this will be like reliving it.  I’m having a bad day I did nothing but stayed On my bed hearing All my teachers screaming Behind the screens Like I give a sh1t I’m attending for attendance Don’t expect my attention And don’t test my patience Please give me some space mam Stop asking me answers While you can ask others You expect me to say ‘yes mam’ While you can just look at The list of participants You start the roll call While I start reciting all The alphabets Warming up my vocal chords I finally say it trying Hard not to sound grumpy But you ask me if I'm sleeping I say, ‘no, I’m sorry’ b1tch I know what I'm doing is wrong But why can’t I have a break For all the stuff I have done It sucks that I should accept my fate I have a pile of books in the corner Waiting to be done They stare at me judgingly While I struggle to dodge them How can someone be like you? Hate to t...

 You told me you loved me But I know you lied I didn’t want to admit it But I could see all the signs   You lied when you said ‘I have saved you’ But we both know that It isn’t the truth   I had to throw myself away Just so you can feel comfortable   I cry everyday denying The reason behind it It’s you and your lies That have been killing me   Now that I think back about Those days, I feel ashamed Of myself and my choices Making me hate myself   It would have been lot easier If have seen those red flags Hanging around us   I would cry all day My friends would ask me To leave you but I stayed Hoping you would change.   Deep down I knew You would stay the same But I couldn’t leave you Because I loved you the same   I know you lied when you Said, ‘I am sorry’ You didn’t mean it And you didn’t bother to.   We would break-up every other day And somehow end up together Thought we were meant to be Though I see otherwise daily.   I always g...