You lied when you said

By Rini -
 You told me you loved me
But I know you lied
I didn’t want to admit it
But I could see all the signs
 
You lied when you said
‘I have saved you’
But we both know that
It isn’t the truth
 
I had to throw myself away
Just so you can feel comfortable
 
I cry everyday denying
The reason behind it
It’s you and your lies
That have been killing me
 
Now that I think back about
Those days, I feel ashamed
Of myself and my choices
Making me hate myself
 
It would have been lot easier
If have seen those red flags
Hanging around us
 
I would cry all day
My friends would ask me
To leave you but I stayed
Hoping you would change.
 
Deep down I knew
You would stay the same
But I couldn’t leave you
Because I loved you the same
 
I know you lied when you
Said, ‘I am sorry’
You didn’t mean it
And you didn’t bother to.
 
We would break-up every other day
And somehow end up together
Thought we were meant to be
Though I see otherwise daily.
 
I always got caught drowning
In my emotions about you
Wondered how you felt
When I said “I love you”
 
I wanted you to change
Wanted you to communicate
Wanted us to fight the red flags away
Wanted to live a happy day
 
I know you lied when you
Said you loved me too
You didn’t have to hurt me
The way you did
 
Now I moved on but
You still linger in my mind
Please leave me alone
I need a happier life.


~The End ~


Heyyy so whatchu think? I wrote this from the pov of a friend. 

This is about loving someone who doesn't love you back.

Hoped you liked it! 
Love,
Rini.


TDD- I'm sorry i was late this time, i totally lost track of days and time. Summer vacation has done a toll on my rationality. (if that makes sense)
So basically not a lot happened, we went to Surat bought a shit ton of stuff and that's it. We were so tired days later and didn't lift a finger. 
I made a bunch of friends from a poet group i got added into. 
Byeee

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  1. Anonymous30 May 2022 at 20:45

    Sugoii💗💗

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  2. Anonymous30 May 2022 at 20:46

    How beautifully someone could present emotions, and my eyes and heart witnessed it today.

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  3. An Orange Cloud31 May 2022 at 10:04

    Ahh thank you so much

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