never meant to be

By Rini -

 

TW: depressing.

 

 

Maybe we were never supposed to be

Meant to be

 

The gods are getting angry, twas

Never meant to be

 

Life is getting shorter each day

Never meant to be

 

The curse is getting stronger dusk to dawn

Never meant to be

 

Darling your hand is getting warmer

Never meant to be

 

The stars in the sky seem brighter

Never meant to be

 

The distance is getting closer

Never meant to be

 

The world is getting darker

Never meant to be

 

The lights are getting dimmer

Never meant to be

 

My eyes are all dried up

Never meant to be

 

My skin is getting paler

Never meant to be

 

There’s a mushroom of smoke outside

Never meant to be

 

The air is getting toxic

Never meant to be

 

The world is getting crueler

Never meant to be

 

The greed is spreading

Never meant to be

 

The universe is screaming it is

Never meant to be

 

But the universe is scheming to reverse the

Never meant to be

 

 

 

Maybe we deserved the pain, the guilt, the heartache

That comes with the chaos we build all day.

 

But what if maybe we didn’t deserve this

Isn’t that painful if not fatally disgusting

 

If the end of the sky and the death of the ocean

Is what I’d see in my lifetime on mother earth

If we d1e before the stars that burn

And we only see the beginning of the end

 

The beginning of the end is such a beautiful thing

Until it is broadcasted in all news channels, 24/7

 

Was it meant to be?

Never meant to be?

 

Or maybe it’s a cause and effect, nothing magical or divine

Just a consequence we brought on ourselves with the way we treated things

 

Nahhhh that doesn’t sound plausible,

It’s definitely the doing of something supernatural

Punishing us so unfairly

For all we did was civilize.

 

 

Patronizing, pathetic distraction

While the lizards rule.

And the commoners get fooled

Bathed in blood sweat and tears.

  


 Darling your hand is getting colder,

Never meant to be?

 


~there is no end~

 

 

Hey guys.

I know the ending was unexpected. Even I didn’t expect it. watching news raises my cortisol levels these days. It’s getting scarier by day, and the way we keep ignoring and pretend everything is fine is just as scary, if not, scarier.

 

Im guilty in doing the same, a little normal in routine doesn’t hurt anyone.

 

Its all so hard to take in.

 

Hoping for the safest way out.

 

Way out of the chaos, I mean.

 

Thank you for reading till the end.

 

Yours lovingly,

Rini.

 

 

 

TDD:

IM SO VERY SORRY. IM 2 DAYS LATE.

Two people at my work asked me why I didn’t post yet.

Ahhhhhhhhhhh the pressure ahhhhhhhhhh

(don’t stop asking)

 

Days are going by faster (you can tell that by how badly I am late to posting this time)

 

Hope everyone is doing good, have a quiet weekend. G

 

 

Thank you,

Rini.

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