feeling inside

By Rini -
This one is about me. (no wonder it sounds depressing lol)


I don’t know what I’m feeling inside
I don’t really understand anything
I feel like I have my mind
Everywhere but here

I am bad at expressing my feelings
I put on a mask for every expression
That kinda sucks but it’s really
Cool and I don’t really complain

But then it comes
The time we express 
Our feelings 
But I fail 

I’m nervous but I can’t show it
I’m so excited but you can’t see it
Feels like I’m trapped 
With my feelings inside

Right before my speech
I’m trembling in fear
But no one wishes me luck
Assuming I’m really fine

But how do I tell them
I need their support 
While I can’t show them
‘cause my feelings' stuck inside

I’m so happy for the surprise
Want to tell my family that I love it
But as my blank face says the words
They don’t seem so sincere

I hate that I can’t let them know
That I love them a lot
This sucks. 
Yes it does

I’m feeling so cheerful but
I know you always doubt 
My emotions as all you can
See is a face so straight

I try to act excited
I take out my mask 
But it’s already too late
I failed my task

I’m scared for my results
But all you see is confidence
You assume I’m alright
While I can’t show you 
What I’m really feeling inside
And that’s the truth

I'm so angry 
You broke my heart
But I can’t seem
To let you know
You think i'm okay
You think I moved on
But i'm still angry 
With your behavior 

I'm feeling sad 
That you ignored me
Put others on your head
And don’t value me

But of course
You don’t know that
I am sad
And you don’t know that

Feels like i'm trapped 
With my feelings inside



ok so don't take me wrong. i can put on expressions but they just don't seem genuine or sincere. 
I tried my best to put my thoughts into words and im proud of this one!
i guess this one doesn't have a lot of rhyming to it. you can say i tried free verse :P

Anywayss, thank you for reading till here. until next time byee <3

love,
Rini.


(yoo sup, how were your ten days? mine were great! i made a new friend and i have to say they are one of the most ambitious people i have ever met. i appreaciate them🙏. i hope they reach their goal (and remember me (lol)). anyways, i am going to have my exams in two weeks, and bingo! im scared. i have to start my preparation. wish me luck 🙏 >_<  oh and my phone case has come!! it looks so prettyyy. its turquoise coloured flowers with grey and orange leaves. i had a lot of fun in college. and thats itt. 
the last two days have been rough T_T
ok bye!)

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