Second Lead

By Rini -

Trail Of Thoughts-1


 Well how do I start? okay maybe I'll start from the meaning of second lead. (I am writing from google because I don't want any misunderstandings) Second lead basically means the second main character of a theatre performance. Second lead is also the second most important person of the show. 

Now that we have an idea about it, let's continue. 

 I've always felt like the second lead in my life story. Okay that may not be a long time but still. Not the most important person to anyone, not having the scenes a main lead would experience, etc. made me realise maybe I'm not the protagonist type. I'm just a side character. A side character with a very boring life story. A story that is just uninteresting so you try to skip it if you can while watching the show.

Well, let's try to be positive. Maybe I'm just too young to experience the protagonist life. Maybe that is still unlocked and I need to do some quests to unlock it (?). (That's how your mind works if you read a lot of action comics). Now that looks like I'm just pitying myself which is kinda worse. 

Anyways, I want to write a few situations where I felt like the second lead. One of them is that I have not experienced that sweet high school love story while I could in school. The most near I was to love was when I jokingly said I had a crush on a guy (to the whole class. yes I know I’m stupid) and actually ended up having crush on him. Well I can pretty much say that didn't go any further than that. Not to mention he didn't avoid or ignore me when he knew it, or else that would have been pretty devastating (which is btw the most embarrassing thing a teenager could experience).                                                   What I wanted to convey is that I didn't experience a love story but rather a crush story. Now I look like I’m complaining. Don't take me wrong, I actually love that phase and I hope to narrate the story some time later ;)  

Now for the next scenario. For this scenario I want you to imagine a few things. I'm just going to place everything on my mind here explaining why I feel like a second lead in this scenario.

You know how in movies and dramas, the leads are seen to be either the depressed type or the happiest type. I'm selecting the former and let's classify that further. There is this optimistic depressed type and pessimistic depressed. Well as you can guess (if you did, that is.) I'm somewhere in the middle. I'm positive on the outside and negative on the inside. It's like I don’t show it often to everyone. It’s like I change according to the surroundings. If I'm around people with optimistic nature I tend to become pessimist and vice-versa. It’s quite fascinating even to me. 

There is another scenario I'd like it mention. You know the side character that is like the love messenger for the main leads. As you can guess, it was me again. I was the 'love messenger' for my friend a few couple of times. It felt strange. I was helpful that is one thing, but I also felt like some kind of errand boy.                   

Sometimes I feel like maybe I'm the character who would never get over her ex. :/ damn. 

The song 'Heather' by Conan Gay where he sings, "Why would you ever kiss me, I'm not even half as pretty", is just so beautifully relatable and I don't even know why. Every time I hear it, it feels so close to me. I feel sad that it's relatable somehow. One of the main reasons I feel like the second lead is that I may not be pretty enough to be the main lead. Oh and I may talk about his further in my later posts. (Don't want to make the post longer.)

Anyways, that's it for today guys. I'll see you soon in another post! Can't wait! Have a nice day!

Oh and this is like a new series, 'Trail of thoughts'. I would write about my thoughts, as you can see. Some of the stuff that I wouldn't share with real life friends, so here we are. If you have read until here, you're already my friend! I hope you like it, and, assuming you'd relate, let's become the main leads we want to be and deserve to be ;)

Thank you for reading. 

Love, 

Me.

 

(btw I realised blog is similar to vlog and they are both similar to log which is basically a formal diary. so I decided to write about one good thing that happened to me in the past 10 days period. I went to a party held by my neighbors for their b'days, and I loved my fit! that's not common so it was a good thing. I enjoyed a lot and had fun which I absolutely didn't expect. so yea that's it. bye)

                                                                                                                 

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