Spotify Wrapped 2

By Rini -

 

Safe to say I just went over my last year’s post about this very topic and now I feel influenced. But I promise I’ll try my best to get you in my head.

 

 

Trail of thoughts- 24

 

 

 

This year was the best. I loved it so much. Many great things happened in this year. But we will not talk about that today.

 

Spotify released it’s much awaited wrapped and safe to say, I didn’t hate it. It’s so ironical though. Last time I thought I didn’t change at all and how change is the only constant. But at the end of the day, I was proved wrong.

 

Spotify wrapped told me that I was an adventured and that I explored many new genres. That I was a true explorer. “I was told I was an explorer when I felt like a hobbit.”- me last year. I legit thought I was being static but turns out I was more dynamic than ever.

 

But this year was different. Very different.

 

Let me cut to chase, spotify called me a “time traveler”, pretty cool, huh? Wait until you read what’s below the title. It read, “Have we met before? You travel back in time and listen to songs on repeat, again and again. The best tracks never get old.”

I was shook, yet I knew why. I thought I was an explorer while I was told hobbit. Let me explain.

 

My theory is that, last year was my second year in the new school. Everything was the same. Well, majorly. And I was cool with myself for wandering around and finding new genres. But this year was different. My two years of fun in that school ended and I had to join a new institution. And new things are scary. I needed to ground myself with familiarity. We even moved houses this year so I need more known things to make the unknown easier to cope. I guess I just went with it. Listened to the same tracks every day on repeat to make myself feel better in the unfamiliar world.

 

Now that I think about it, these four wall s surrounding me don’t seems so foreign to me anymore, maybe next year I’ll write something different than today. I’ll be in this institution for a while anyways. It’s like how they say, “History repeats!”

 

Changing is scary, no matter how familiar you try to get with it. It is just so scary. But, when you know you have someone there with you through the thick and thin, you will feel better. And who’s that someone you ask? It is you. You are with yourself. Through your whole life. Try getting to know each other. Maybe you’ll feel better. And of course don’t be a loner, get some friends.

 

Just know that there is someone always loving you no matter what. And me. I love you.

 

 

The fact that change is inevitable but me changing seems to be evitable so let’s go with that.

Went through some pictures of younger Rini and somehow I didn’t change a bit. Just when I thought I was so authentic and new, sigh, I am just an older version of my younger self.

 

Anyways, spreading love. And Christmas. Happy December love!

 

 

I love you,

Rini.


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