Bloody relations

By Rini -

 Hellooo! The title I wrote here is the real one. (because blogger doesn't let me underline my text in the title *rolling eyes emoji*). Now go decipher it Sherlock!



Bloody relations
 
People are so tough
With all the relations and emotions
I would rather be a robot
And enjoy their bluntness
 
Every time I go out
And socialize with people
I return home with a doubt
And hate it wasn't simple
 
Amidst the crowd
In whispered intentions
Paired with loud lies
There are no 'we's, only 'I's
 
Among the greed
We all sit
There's no escape
No one can feel safe
All the snakes
Inside them
Wake up as
Everything starts
 
So many sneaky stabs
Until you realize
Yet you can't escape it
Even if you know it
 
I learnt the worst way to
Return all of the knives
Stab them back until
They leave you alone.
 
I hope we don't meet again
I did a lot of embarrassing things
Enough to make a trilogy
And I don't want to repeat it
 
I can see the truth behind your talk
But I can't quite point it out
It's annoying, while I try
You just enjoy the night.
 
 Watch where you go
‘cause you just crossed the limits.
Feeling so proud?
 I'd be ashamed if it were me.
 
It’s scary how you normalise this
Painting your opinions on me
And trying to influence too
While hiding the real truth
 
The corner of your lips curve
When I say that I’ve been depressed
How can I call this care and love?
When it’s clearly sadistic happiness.
 
 
 ~The End~


Soooo,, what do you think?? I personally love how this turned out! 
i wrote this after an exhausting day of socialising. don't take me wrong, i'm an extrovert and i love to socialise and party but negativity can't escape the blanket of joy. where there is positive, there is, even a little bit of, negative. (idk anything about science so dont come after me with theories of lightning)
 
well that's it, bye!



TDD- My SEE have started last Saturday and today i had math exam. {this is me writing the day before thus not knowing how i performed in it, i'm scared.}
okayy so let's go day wise.
i started an instagram account for my poetry, @an_orange_cloud , you are most probably from that account lol. idk what i had in my mind when i started this but probably this, "oh! lets start an account right before my SEE which are the most important one in my academic year for which the papers' gonna come from outside making it super difficult- but YES let's do it anyways!!" *sigh* im regretting my decision, the timing is wrong. 
not a lot happened, i was just cramming for the exams. i also learnt that over-confidence f's you up in a tough way yet again.
oh and belated happy women's day!! 
inka anthe, selavu. bye-bye!

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