An Orange Cloud

I told you I liked you  Even though I knew your reply It wasn't positive like my blood group  But I didn't want to regret that night  I just needed to take it off my chest  Wanted to fill the breeze so fresh  Without catching a cold  Just wanted to let it go  I wasn't sure myself  What I felt towards you  I guess I was selfish  Because I wanted to include you  The battle in my heart  Was heating up  The heartbeat was raising, thought  I would die but here I am  My ego was bigger than my heart  I couldn't take it when you rejected me  I started denying it altogether but I was too late I was already floating  I needed the ground I had to think straight But I could 'feel' myself like a 'diver in the space' Though it sucked to be alone  I needed time to let go  I am not scared of anything but to lose  And I was scared of losing you  I wanted to know you better  I wanted to let ...

You joked about being dead You joke about killing yourself But that didn’t really bother me Because I thought you were kidding.   But one day it really got me. My fake scenario’s genre changed I imagined you being dead before me I was so sad and so scared.   A lot of emotions Rushed in my mind. The strongest one was The feeling of regret.   I regret not helping you. I regret ignoring you. I regret all those days. When I hated you for a change.   I regretted not being able to Change how I felt towards you. But I was too late for that You were gone thinking I hated you.   At first I was unbothered By your silly confessions. But now I'm truly scared. Scared to face those emotions.   Please don’t be gone I need you by my side I know this don’t make sense But hear me out for once.   You may want to save yourself From all the misery in life. But you should think about others. Others who have you in their hearts.   Please don’t joke about being dead I’ll...

Remember when we all had to face the wrath of online classes? Yes this is from one of those days.  Reading this will be like reliving it.  I’m having a bad day I did nothing but stayed On my bed hearing All my teachers screaming Behind the screens Like I give a sh1t I’m attending for attendance Don’t expect my attention And don’t test my patience Please give me some space mam Stop asking me answers While you can ask others You expect me to say ‘yes mam’ While you can just look at The list of participants You start the roll call While I start reciting all The alphabets Warming up my vocal chords I finally say it trying Hard not to sound grumpy But you ask me if I'm sleeping I say, ‘no, I’m sorry’ b1tch I know what I'm doing is wrong But why can’t I have a break For all the stuff I have done It sucks that I should accept my fate I have a pile of books in the corner Waiting to be done They stare at me judgingly While I struggle to dodge them How can someone be like you? Hate to t...