An Orange Cloud

 Before I say anything, I’m sorry. My last post has been on 20th august, well actually I removed my last post on 20th so technically; my last post has been on 10th august. It’s been 40 days since I have last updated my blog. Feels realllllly weird but ig the jinx finally caught on.  I kept thinking the main goal in a blog is consistency but when the quantity is prioritized over quality, the passion for the act fades away quicker. The pressure to catch on, the ticking clock as it hits 12am every 10 days was getting under my skin. I used to look forward to posting and sharing my poems and thoughts but lately it became all about just posting. Without any real idea or thought. In the words of an anonymous commenter on my most interesting blog post in a while I need to “post something interesting”. That stung. A bit. No, actually a bit more than I would like to admit. It came to this point where telling people I had a blog felt more exciting than actually posting in it which is so ...

Having siblings is the weirdest thing ever. peachrinq instagram in their reel talked about it pretty well. (Exceptionally well) So well that I’m completely ditching my original post for the day and typing this on the day of posting.   Trail Of Thoughts- 42 My point is having someone living in your house, having the same parents as you, sharing half your genes (and still looking like a rat); staying in your life (not minding their own business) if you want it or not for the rest of both of your lives (fortunately), fighting you for every waking moment of their lives, with their sole purpose to embarrass you, and at the same loving you unconditionally, being unable to bear it when disrespect hits either of you from anyone (it could be your own parents), having their back even if miles apart (kilometers isn’t pretty to say in poetry) is what makes siblings weird.   Would I recommend having siblings? Well it’s not my place to say, but I’d definitely recommend it. ...

The riddle of life Sometimes I think about how some things would’ve been totally different had I took the other or different decision.   Trail Of Thoughts- 41 What if I did continue with the other school after 10 th and not chose Kv ultimately suffering whole other battles there? I wouldn’t have met and unmet the many lovely people I now know and love so deeply.   What if I chose the other CA academy? I wouldn’t have met my favourite group of people I now cherish with all my heart.   What if I never decided to write two groups of cma at once? I wouldn’t meet the amazing group of rankers I now love to talk with every day.   What if I didn’t forget to apply for registration of ITT course and registered sooner than I actually did? I wouldn’t meet my dear friend.   What if I joined the other firm for my articleship? I wouldn’t have known there are many people whom I would recognize from my previous life, if there is one. I wouldn’t have had th...

IT’S BEEN 4 YEARS SINCE I HAVE STARTED MY BLOG. ANORANGECLOUD IS CELEBRATING ITS 2 ND 3 RD BIRTHDAY!!!!!!!!!! (Fresh off the boat reference)   YAYY!   T rail Of Thoughts- 40   Sto-Rini-28 Like all my anniversary posts, I’d like to start with thanking my brother. I know you’re reading this and ready to text me to take it off but no, don’t even think about it. I started Anorangecloud because you suggested it. Thank you again (I’ll thank you for the rest of anorangecloud’s life).     Hello normal people. How is your life treating you these days? BORING.   Let me tell you about mine. (Also, please do share how your life’s been in the comments below or text me <3)   If you read any of my previous anniversary posts, you will know they’re a bunch of “Ten day diary” extended version. It’s a filler post, you can say. And guess what? It’s the same this year as well. Deal with it.   Welcome to my “Chit-chat with Rini because we got nothing else to do” ...

 05082022 It's Friday again. There's one more hour left and I can finally call myself a free bird waiting to fly to the horizon called weekend. A stressful hour, with no energy to learn anything, so distracted that even maths seems uninteresting now, sweaty because the weather can't decide if it wants to be hot or cloudy and mostly stressed about everything. Speaking of weather, I look out of the window and witness something so magical and mesmerizing that it puts a smile on my face. The forest of trees is raining leaves. Yes leaves! It looked so romantic and playful. The yellow leaves falling gracefully with the greenest background with a sprinkle of brown trunks and branches. The scene was out of this world. There were so many leaves falling and covering the ground like a fluffy yellow blanket. Reminded me of many things but the top list would be; going on an autumn date that includes a walk with a beverage to-go, the less travelled road that appears in the poem 'road...

Sometimes I wish that I can just lay on my bed, cry about all my problems, right from the beginning like when my dad tricked me into eating my jalebi when I was like 3 to the unhappened future events like being on my deathbed with my husband on my side in the hospital bed weeping as I take my last breath. I like doing that.   The misery I don’t despise.   That feeling of melancholy that brings me closer to the box I filled with emotions and shut close could be days ago, or even years in the past. That feeling of being wrapped around with a warm heavy blanket even on a sunny day with fan on full speed and AC on blast.   Sometimes I wish to take comfort in the sadness that washes over me due to a tiny conflict.     I wish to be covered with dark grey clouds ready to storm all over my mind.   I wish to stay in a dark blue walled hotel room, with paintings of pretty little flowers not yet ready to bloom, with waterfalls, not so glory when lo...

  TW: depressing.     Maybe we were never supposed to be Meant to be   The gods are getting angry, twas Never meant to be   Life is getting shorter each day Never meant to be   The curse is getting stronger dusk to dawn Never meant to be   Darling your hand is getting warmer Never meant to be   The stars in the sky seem brighter Never meant to be   The distance is getting closer Never meant to be   The world is getting darker Never meant to be   The lights are getting dimmer Never meant to be   My eyes are all dried up Never meant to be   My skin is getting paler Never meant to be   There’s a mushroom of smoke outside Never meant to be   The air is getting toxic Never meant to be   The world is getting crueler Never meant to be   The greed is spreading Never meant to be   The universe is screaming it is...