An Orange Cloud

  Chapter 9     “Why do you even care, Aditya?” Nakshatra huffs at me, barely reaching my shoulders. I stand there in shock, towering over her, my eyes wide, brows scrunching in disbelief.   ‘Why do I care? What do you mean why do I care , Nakshatra?’   My fists clench on either side of my body. My breath catches.   ‘Of all the things you could say, you’re asking me if I care ?   Let me remind you one thing, Nakshatra. Every single day for the past year, we have been walking to school TOGETHER. And I know you wait for me so we can go together. We always walk together. Usually we would talk or I’d be listening to music while you speed walk with me; we do it nonetheless.   But today, you just randomly decided not to walk with me? When I was passing by your home, I glanced out of habit and didn’t see you outside like usual; many reasons for your being late rushed in my mind. I thought maybe you overslept, or you got sick w...

   This is the story of how I got into reading again. It is a big deal for me. Sto-rini-25   After some vigorous studying for my level 2 exams, I had 40 days of rest till the results. I did nothing the whole time, by the way. I wanted to start hobbies. Guess I did something.   I bought a water colouring book. Yes you’ve heard me right. There is a thing called water colouring book. The book has the pigments, they give you two paint brushes. It’s so easy and amazing. I painted few. I got the unicorn themed book. The fun thing is you can actually tear the painted picture and use it as a bookmark which I will not be doing because they’re too precious for that. Here are the pictures. It gets progressively better, I swear.        [1,2,3] [4,5,6] The 6 th  one shows the pigments on the side. The other 5, I tore them out after finishing it. The 1 st  one was, hmm umm, an experiment of sorts. As you can see, there are fish at the bottom so o...

If I told you, you’d go mad. If I told you I don’t want to go, you’d go mad If I told you I want to go, you’d go mad If I told you what I wanted to wear, you’d go mad If I don’t wear what you want me to, you’d go mad If I stayed up late, you’d go mad If I don’t finish my chores, you’d go mad If I do what I want, you’d go mad If I do what you want in my way, you’d go mad If I told you I was heartbroken, you’d go mad If I told you I was burnt out, you’d go mad If I am depressed, you’d go mad If I don’t say anything at all, you’d still go mad. What would you do if I told you that I loved you? Would you still be mad? I would. . This piece is not intentional towards anyone but a mere imagination brought into life through words. Imagine an over-controlling person in someone’s life. They love them but it is bad love and they know it. “Life goes on”, everyone around them says it. But that shouldn’t mean they should accept it, right? So at the end they realize it is bad (f...

Aditya Studying is good. It’s good for a good life. Only good, not great. I have heard of people being great in life and most of the time it’s not because they studied really well in school, college, topped every exam, and won a gold medal for being the topper of toppers. I don’t think studies are the answer for everything. Yes, there are people who are academically blessed, who are just really into academic validation, but honestly, i'm not very fond of them. Any human, any student must have some extra-circular specialty. It’s very importan-   “ADITYA” screams the social teacher, at an attempt to catch my attention. “f-ck” ah f-ck sorry. Ahh shit. I mumble real hard. “I’m sorry sir” I say standing up. Ah there comes the chaos, I can feel the people murmuring all around me, it makes my skin crawl. What’s so interesting about me?? “Pay attention, now sit down.” He says sternly. I can’t believe I got distracted in social class. I’ll continue the ted-talk later.   Coupl...

TW: mentions of r-pe, bl0od This is an analogy, don’t take it literally. So basically this is about situations where you over think and rip off the band aid. Forgive me that was another analogy.   Let me explain with a small example. Imagine there was a test tomorrow. You studied really hard, like you pulled an all-nighter for it. Later you find out the exam is very easy. Almost too easy. It’s not because you studied so well, because all your friends who didn’t study like you got the same marks as you.   So ya.   Searching metaphors in everything but in reality there is nothing interesting in it.   There are times in life when you put in a lot of efforts even when it’s not needed.       "The Absinthe Drinker" by Edgar Degas     Was it a mosquito? Or did I just hit myself too hard?   Was it a 6 feet deep pool? Or did I just drown in a pond?   Was it a heart break? Or did I just cry over a...

  It reeks of sickness. Life and death seem to be the only choices one can make. Yes, some people choose death over dying for it’s faster. It’s mostly old people who have been confined to the beds, machines, needles, medicines that choose a straight line. There are still people who, even though being in the bleakest of lives choose to be hopeful and fight for their lives every single day. And then there are those, those who know when they’re going to die. Those whose death has given them a time, oh so limited too. Those who can’t just choose to die now but continue to die slowly until it’s time.   Maya is the last one. "In the movies, when the character has cancer" starts Maya hesitantly shifting her eyes from the doctor and her mom “their hair, it starts falling and stuff." feeling her brown hair, still growing, with her right hand,” why is mine ... still there?" "THAT’S WHAT YOU WANT TO ASK?" Maya’s mom screams echo in the hospital room. She stands b...

 [before reading this, make sure you are upto date with the story line! if not, go read the earlier SIX chapters right here in my blog (for free!). click on the label "i cant sing" and everything you want is right there, in front of you <33 but ifyoure like me and want to be spoonfed although being an adult, here's the link .]   Nakshatra     What what what what whattttttt just happened???? Did Aditya just hold my hands OH MY GOSH.   I walk- no run to the classroom before it’s too late. Just when I enter the room, Srinivas sir comes from behind. Everyone stands up to greet him. I squirm to my desk. Amrutha says in a whisper, “Why’s your face all red?? Are you not well? Did you vomit?” before I say a word, sir hears her and says “Nakshatra, if you are not feeling fine, please go to the nurse and don’t disturb my class. Why is every good student binging me trouble today?” “I’m fine sir” I stand up and sit down immediately. “Who else was it sir?” chi...